Experience of the soul

Letter from a reader:

Thank you for your research, which helps to better understand the Bible and the Quran, to understand oneself, and to find errors in one's worldview!

Currently, you are working on the topic of the soul, and perhaps my experience will be useful to you - as a result of working on your latest research. I have been studying your books for 10 years.

I have two children and a beloved husband.

In family life, my husband and I may sometimes argue, but we try to understand each other and compromise.

Although he is quite strict, and I am emotional, we hardly ever argue.

But for the past year and a half, I have been facing the same situation.

Approximately every six months, when I needed to discuss a pressing issue with him, my beloved husband would say something like:

«I don't care about you, your opinion, or what you think. I'm not going to discuss anything with you.»

It's hard for me to describe what happens to me after this statement because I can't think about anything anymore.

A feeling of hopelessness and a sense of the meaninglessness of our life together overwhelms me, and the reaction is always the same: «Well, go your own way! What's the point of living together then?»

Yet, after five minutes of soul-searching pain, I realize that love is in the soul, but the hopelessness doesn't go away.

I wondered to myself why I feel like I could forgive infidelity, the collapse of ideals, humiliation, betrayal, but when I pray - and nothing happens, the reaction to this statement is always the same - a feeling of hopelessness - until you mentioned in one of the seminars that you've moved on to the topic of the soul and discovered that there is a level above the level of the soul - it's the level of unity of the souls of loving people.

For me, this information became a healing balm.

I recalled all the situations from childhood when I could cry for hours because my parents didn't love me and broke the unity with me.

Since childhood, I had clear ideas about what relationships should be like between loving people, and the pain was unbearable when these ideas were shattered, and the meaning of life was lost instantly.

After that, a year passed, and I no longer had such a reaction of hopelessness.

Now I am expecting my third child - a boy.

I hope I've caught onto this level.

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Sergei Nikolaevich's response:

One day, an acquaintance called me and said that her sister seemed to have gone mad: she was behaving badly, spreading rumors about her.

— This is inexplicable, — the woman puzzled, — I don't understand why I'm being punished like this. What have I done in the past?

— Are you pregnant by any chance? — I asked.

— No, — she replied in surprise, — What does pregnancy have to do with this?

— Because this situation is working towards the future and is directly related to it.

The soul of a child is visible in your field - most likely, a boy. So, in order for him to be born healthy, you need to accept the collapse of the future, the humiliation of pride, and go through fate's misfortunes. That's why you are being helped from above.

— But I'm not pregnant, — the woman exclaimed in surprise.

— You are being prepared for conception, — I said, shrugging.

Several months later, she became pregnant and gave birth to a boy. In order for him to be not only healthy but also spiritual and talented, it was necessary to undergo humiliations not only of the spirit but also of the soul. In this case, meanness from relatives is one of the best remedies. It could be meanness, neglect, unintentional hurt, or indifference.

It seems you've handled the task. Accept my congratulations.

S.N. Lazarev, «Survival Experience 1»