Move forward and help others.

On May 14/15, I had a performance in Saint Petersburg, where tickets were being sold slowly and reluctantly. In Moscow, on the contrary, the audience showed interest in my research. I went to the performance without much enthusiasm, especially since I had presented all the latest information in the Moscow hall. With my diagnoses, frankly, any overloads were inadmissible for me. But in the end, I decided to take a risk. And the lecture, unexpectedly even for me, turned out to be interesting. During the lecture itself, I periodically had a feeling of enlightenment. I tried to look at the theme of time from a different angle. An interesting situation unfolded with the concept of fate. What was in my scheme.

In the present, all values boiled down to two points: consciousness and desires, the theme of jealousy and pride. In the counter-flow of time, in the future, they were supposed to merge into a whole. But when I diagnosed others and myself in reverse time, this merger somehow did not actually occur.

Then, gradually feeling out my problems, I came up with a new structure that encompassed the streams of the past and the future. After intensive pumping of models, as a result of selection, only one name remained — fate. But according to my own scheme, fate was part of the general package, which I called will, fate, consciousness, abilities. For some time, I again tried to understand where my mistake was. And then I realized that this new concept of fate goes beyond the scope of one life.

It is already a combination of 49 lives, I wrote about this in the second book. On the train, I returned to this topic. Two days after the performance, I went to friends in Crimea. The reason for returning to this topic was simple. Again, I started having pain in my kidneys, continuous, dull, and heavy. And according to my diagnostics, it was connected with fate.

«Strange,' I thought, 'the kidneys shouldn't hurt. I have energy on the plus side now, the future is open».

Probably, the level of claims to others and to myself was more extensive than I had assumed. By the way, it was in fate that will and desire were united. I lay in the train and prayed continuously. I forgave those who willfully or unwittingly destroyed my fate, understanding that it was salvation given by God. I removed dissatisfaction with myself, despondency, grievances against fate, and against God. It turns out, fear for your fate gives rise to grievances, hatred, and jealousy. And in my youth, I not only constantly feared for my fate, but this fear turned into a fear of the future, and then into despondency, and all this I unwittingly passed on to my descendants.

«But at least now everything is more or less clear,' I think. 'There is the theme of desires and the theme of will, consciousness. There is the same in the future. There is fate, which combines two streams of time. It is necessary to overcome dependence on fate. For this dependence will constantly fuel everything else».

The pain in my kidneys did not allow me to think. But then I gradually abstracted from it. An unexpected thought came to mind. My books are called 'Diagnostics of Karma.' Why did I diagnose people's fates? In order to make fate happy, good. Yes, I understood that without love for God, this is impossible. But the primary goal was to straighten and correct fate. Yes, love for God really gives everything if there is a lot of it in the soul. It opens a new life. It gives any spiritual and material blessings, but only when it is placed above everything else and is not a means to achieve human goods.

What does it mean to put love for God above fate?

It's when I no longer care whether my fate is good or bad if I have felt love for God. And I, it seems, for many years subconsciously talking about love for God, aimed others precisely at a prosperous fate. So, sooner or later, my own fate had to be completely destroyed, or what is associated with it. And it seems that the problem with the kidneys is the result of this process. It's good to think on the train. I lie for hours, closing my eyes, and the pain helps me forget about the little things and concentrate on the main thing.

If for many years I directed the energy of my emotions towards improving fate, that is, subconsciously made it a goal, how many years do I need to atone for this? And what misfortunes do I need to go through to overcome my mistakes? Will I have time? Judging by my condition, hardly. Although why so pessimistic? After all, I came to the conclusion that any problem is not a retribution for the old, but preparation for the new. Maybe my soul is preparing for new information. And still, how to speed up the process of overcoming dependence on fate? Hour by hour I lie, concentrating on finding a way out. Especially good to think at night.

Consciousness by habit prepares for sleep. All minor problems are braked and pushed aside. Gradually, in consciousness, one word emerges — «Understanding». Why do we need to repeat hundreds and thousands of times that love for God is more important than fate, life, and desires? To feel this and not make mistakes anymore.

But if a person has understood something and understood deeply, then he will no longer repeat other people's mistakes, for him it will be a meaningless act. So, continuing to move forward, to the foundation of my problems, and helping others, I can overcome my problems faster."

S.N. Lazarev, «Diagnostics of Karma», book 7