One must fight for love, primarily by changing oneself

The end of the millennium is approaching. It needs to be marked somehow, to summarize and generalize what I have done. The clearer the past, the easier it is to work with the future. Before the seminar, I decided to see a few people.

Since I am set on maximizing the generalization of all problems, those who subconsciously interact with my field will come to the reception, and their assistance will help me sort out my research issues.

I expected the reception to last about two hours. It lasted more than six, mainly because of two women. Surprisingly, I just couldn't explain to them that they perceive the world incorrectly. Two very difficult cases. And it was not illness or misfortune, but the psychological state of both women. Here comes the first one.

«I'm glad I saw you», she says in an even voice, that's essentially why I came. But there's another issue that concerns me.

Did I do the right thing? I completely controlled my first husband, and it seems I killed him with it. And when I decided to marry a second time, I told myself, 'I will completely yield in everything.' He had serious flaws, but I didn't allow myself to express condemnation or dissatisfaction. He was seriously ill and needed care, which I endured. But recently, he declared that he had fallen in love with another woman and left. I could have kept him, stayed by my side, but I chose not to kill the love in his soul—and let him go. He's happy there now; they had a child. So, did I do the right thing?

«It's hard to say», I reply, «Generally, one must fight for love, primarily by changing oneself. In some ways, you did right, but I can't pinpoint exactly what the issue is».

The woman looks at me with regret:

«You know, seeing you was enough for me. Maybe we shouldn't delve into my affairs. We just need to live, and life will put everything in its place».

I just have to say 'yes' and let her go in peace. My diagnostics only capture the crude field structures, the deformation of which is strongly tied to the body, the fate of a person. I can feel the finest details, but I cannot see them. The backup and influence had already worked when she came for the consultation. And now I cannot get accurate information; the field has leveled. But I feel that she is failing. And for her, the situation is becoming increasingly dangerous.

«Don't leave», I say, «something is amiss with you».

«But I haven't renounced my love for my husband. I still love him», she says.

«You know, go sit down, work, maybe the picture will clear up», I suggest.

She raises her eyebrows quizzically, stands up, and leaves. The next patient enters. She is agitated, and it takes some time before she calms down. Her pretty face shows signs of deep distress.

«I've had issues with men since my youth», she says, both pride and high sensitivity. I never knew how to forgive.

And then I fell in love. Everything was wonderful. I loved him and saw that he loved me. And everything was gradually leading to marriage. There probably was no one happier than me. Then suddenly at a party, he disappeared and didn't call me for several days. I was going insane all those days. He called only after a week, as if nothing had happened, and suggested we meet. I scolded him and slammed down the phone. Later I calmed down. And when he called, I was ready to forgive him, only to find out that he had been missing that week with a woman he had recently met. After our phone dispute, he went back to her again but still wanted to see me. I couldn't understand why he was tormenting me like this. Our relationship didn't work out. A few months later, he called me from another city and said he still loved me. But by that time, he had married that woman. I told him, 'If you love me, how could you marry her?' He mumbled something in his defense and repeated that he loved me.

'But if you love me,' I told him, 'come to me, divorce that woman before a child appears; it will be too late once a child is there.'

He started lying to me again and kept saying he loved me.

'I cannot have children with this woman,' he explains, 'She's a prostitute and she also drinks.'

Some time passes, and he still calls me and confesses his love. Then I find out that he had a child with that woman. And this torment continues to this day. And now I am in a terrible state, my entire nervous system is shattered. Help me understand what is happening.

«You see», I say, «Women in your family have learned to love, but not how to suffer».

«When we experience an enlightenment of love, through this feeling we access the most intimate structures of being. However, touching these structures is deadly if the soul is impure. Therefore, the feeling of true love is inaccessible to many people. And if you do experience this love, it must purify itself from all things human for at least some time.

That is, you must learn to preserve love when relationships with a loved one collapse, when your desires fail, when you are offended as a woman, when your life is shattered and the hope of having children and a family is destroyed. If you keep love and do not seek to blame others, only then can you have human happiness to the extent defined by your love.

The amount of human experience we receive in this life is the same amount we must lose. In great love lie colossal human values—this is the future, a vast opportunity for our descendants and ourselves in future lives.

If we hold onto this love and do not renounce it, we secure the future for ourselves and our descendants. From this immense wealth, one can become dependent and die, losing the future.

Salvation is possible by intensifying our pursuit of Divine love, that is, by preserving love when everything it transforms into crumbles: the future, children, family, relationships with a loved one».

You could have been purified through death, disease, or misfortune. You were given the most lenient option—through another person. And you flatly refuse to accept it.

«But why does he constantly talk to me about love, why lie to me?» the woman painfully asks.

«He's not lying», I say, «Without love in your soul, you wouldn't endure this ordeal».

His admission helps you preserve love in your soul and undergo the purification given to you by God.

«But why did he need to torture me like this?»

«Understand, he's not to blame. Your internal state determines what happens to you.»

I look into the woman's eyes and see that she does not understand me.

«You know, go sit down, do some work», I tell her, «Try to see the divine will in everything. Try to preserve love despite everything».

She wipes away her tears and leaves. Then two more patients come in, but I don't remember their problems or what I told them. Everything was quite straightforward. I sit at the desk and look out the window. Now the first patient who let go of her husband is about to enter. And I still haven't figured out what the issue is. Any generalization and understanding only go up to a certain level. If the roots of the situation go deeper, the person does not understand me, no matter how correctly I speak. I see that in this woman, a program of self-destruction is rapidly growing. Now it's about eight times greater than it was at the beginning of the session. And here she comes in, sits down, and starts talking. And I understand what the issue is.

Coming to the session, one must detach from one's will, desires, and life. The faster the processes at the session, the more dangerous the incorrect orientation is. This woman did not give up control; she is still sitting here and controlling me, suggesting what I should say and do. Initially, she pressured her first husband and thought she had completely closed that chapter by yielding to the second. But she simply started suppressing herself and controlling herself. Outwardly, she accepted the situation, but internally, irritation and grievances were constantly occurring. When all this accumulated to a degree dangerous for her husband's life, he intuitively switched to another woman, but again, it wasn’t he who left, but she who let him go.

«You can renounce love,» I told her, «but you absolutely cannot renounce control. Even if you were being killed, you would be giving advice and trying to control the process. Your focus on will and control has grown so much during the session that you can no longer go without serious consequences,» I explained, «You are in a very serious situation, try to understand that.»

«Do I have a chance?»the woman asked.

I shrugged.

«As long as you are in the session, you do.»

«What should I do?»

«Try to lose your will, control, and life, and retain only your love for God.»
Tears appeared in the woman's eyes.

«I think I'm beginning to understand what the matter is,» she said.

«Sit for another hour, think,» I suggested, and she left.

The second patient entered. It seemed simple: the first had deified will, the second deified desires. And when I used to explain to people the reasons and mechanisms for overcoming, they understood, and their situation, health, and fate changed. Later, I realized that will and desire flowed into each other, pride was replaced by envy, and vice versa. And what needed to be overcome was the dependency on both entities. But it had never been so tough. There must have been some reason fueling their entanglement. To convince them, I had to subconsciously reach the roots of the situation, experiencing significant strain. Again, my mechanistic approach failed. I removed the fixation on desires, then on control, and you're healthy. Why was this session so tough? I couldn't explain it. «Perhaps something at the seminar must be,» I thought.

By the way, over the last few months, I've noticed a good trend. Earlier, I would diagnose the audience at the beginning of my performances. And I saw a significant difference occurring after the performance. The state of the audience improved more broadly and for longer periods. About a year ago, I noticed the following: on the first day, prepared people, all knowledgeable, would come. On the second day—newcomers and some from the first performance. And so, the audience field on the second day was much better than the first. I explained this by the fact that the viewers interact with each other, and the information and changes are solidified by the lecture.

In November 2000, I held performances in St. Petersburg. It went the same way. The first day the energy was poor, the second day it was wonderful. A week later, I began to perform in Moscow. I looked at the field of viewers in the hall and couldn't understand what had happened. The field was already clean, and it was related not to the viewers in St. Petersburg, but directly to me. What follows from that. Before, changes were possible with direct contact and working with information.

Now, when I work at much finer levels, first the cleansing of the hall occurs, and then the direct contact and work. Cause and effect change places. What on the external plane appears to be the cause, on the subtle plane turns out to be the effect.

S.N. Lazarev, «Diagnostics of Karma 7»