What leads us to sterility, both creative and physical?

A few days later, I had another patient. She seemed to have a completely different problem, not related to health. The patient's story:

«Since childhood, I've had excellent musical abilities, and my vocal talents, as the experts said, were simply outstanding. I still can't understand what happened. At the moment when I began to realize my potential and a brilliant career started to open up before me, I suddenly began to gradually lose my abilities. Strangely enough, I even lost the desire to realize them. I was told it was a curse. But neither traditional healers nor psychics could remove it. I still don't know why God punished me».

Sergey Nikolaevich's response: I think God didn't punish, but rewarded you. The thing is, the processes of childbirth and creativity are fundamentally united. What we absolutize and make a goal, other than God, we must lose. If a woman makes the desire to have children the goal and meaning of life, she will become incredibly jealous, filled with aggression, and will not have children. The absolutization of childbirth can lead to sterility, but the absolutization of creativity can also lead to sterility. You have tremendous creative abilities and opportunities. This elevated you above others. And since love for God was not your goal, you made creativity your goal. You are destined to have children with bright souls. The absolutization of creativity, childbirth was bound to lead to the loss of something. Either to sterility while preserving creative potential, or to the birth of children and the loss of abilities.

If you worry, regret, and fear because of creative failures, you will lose not only the ability to create but also the ability to have children. And for spinning sterility and preventing the birth of children, in some time you may become seriously ill. For love to suffice for both children and creativity, your love for God must be several orders of magnitude higher. If a person makes creativity the goal and the highest happiness and meaning of life, their soul begins to lose reserves of love. And then, to preserve the creative potential, he refuses both family and future children. Attachment to creativity, childbirth generates jealousy. And in this case, jealousy penetrates very deeply. To prevent an imminent explosion of aggression, a person intuitively changes their sexual orientation. For a while, this blocks aggression and allows preserving the creative potential, but later it will be even worse. Sometimes, creative people, to somehow block jealousy, lead a promiscuous sexual life. But this too is a temporary delay with further aggravating circumstances.

If a person is unhappy in personal life, their creative possibilities increase. In this case, attachment to creativity, childbirth is blocked. Outwardly, these patterns often look strange. Strong emotions about creative failures can lead to a fall in creative potential, or it can enhance jealousy and sterility.

It turns out that the main cause of impotence in men is jealousy. It is mainly given by the following linkage: creation, childbirth, love for people, spirituality, sexual pleasures. If a man often felt offended by women in life, thought poorly of them or those who insulted his feelings and trust, then he is a future impotent.

Influencing each of these links allows revealing others. For example, attachment to sexual pleasures, i.e., bodily pleasures, can be well blocked by fasting and prayer. Accordingly, jealousy decreases, and creative abilities increase. A jealous person comes to sterility, not only physical but also creative. A jealous woman takes away abilities from her children and grandchildren and pushes them towards homosexuality. It is important to understand one thing: we are all living people and will always be offended and jealous.

If you don't defend yourself externally, it often means encouraging a person in wrongful actions. Superficial aggressive emotions should not penetrate inside, where there should only be love. But in critical situations, when we have to choose what is more important to us, love or jealousy, which often looks like condemnation, contempt, and offense, we must unequivocally choose love. If we play tennis, we will be upset when losing and feel envy and regret.

But inside we will always be happy because our main value system is outside the game. And then playing tennis will develop us, not maim us.

Our life is the same tennis game, in which we are truly happy only when the main value system is outside the boundaries of one or several lives. When the highest happiness is hidden in love for God, every second of our life becomes an opportunity for us to radiate love and joy.

S.N. Lazarev, «Diagnostics of Karma», book 3.