Yesterday, March 18th, I had a presentation in Saint Petersburg. In the morning, from the office, I called a woman who had been to see me twice. She has cancer. There has been no improvement. For me, this is an interesting situation. So, I call her and look at her field. (Additionally, she was at my presentation yesterday.) Her field is good, the acceptance of the traumatizing situation is high.
«Name your children», I ask.
She names them, and everything becomes clear to me. One of the children has a potential death in their field. The acceptance of the traumatizing situation is closed. He cannot preserve love during the upheaval of the sensual level. The author is the mother, who did not know how to preserve love in cleansing painful situations. Every painful situation that comes to the son on a subtle level causes a self-destruction explosion. In the mother, this program turns into a cancerous tumor.
«In your youth, you had flashes of unwillingness to live, despondency, dissatisfaction with yourself», I say. «You internally suppressed love for your husband, through whom purification was happening. You need to pray for your son, teach him to always preserve love in any situation».
«How should I pray for my son?» the woman asks.
«Listen, but I talked about this in my lecture yesterday».
«Excuse me», says the patient, «but somehow it doesn't sink in».
«Remember all the moments when you renounced love. I see that you have worked on yourself. I don't see hatred or resentment in your soul, but there is a lot of renunciation of love through despondency, unwillingness to live in your soul. You need to forgive not only others but also yourself, accept your fate as given by God. Teach your son to preserve love and overcome not only hatred and resentment but also despondency, doubts, and fear».
You can't imagine how fear destroys our souls.
It is not for nothing that the Bible says, «He who fears is not perfected in love». In the subconscious, the emotion of fear breaks down into renunciation, hatred, and the program to destroy what we fear. Fear is one of the primary forms of dependence. First, we lose the sensation and vision of the Divine in this world. Our will, our desires begin to overshadow Divine love.
And then fear appears. I am afraid to lose the human, on which I have become dependent. After fear come doubts about the future, disbelief in oneself. After this comes dissatisfaction with fate, despondency. Then come resentments, and after them - hatred. When we are constantly afraid for our future and expect something from it, we are already ill. Expectation is vampirism - consumption, dependence.
Once again, briefly repeating: teach your son to preserve love. Pray that he discards everything that prevents him from loving.
Help his soul - your body will heal.
Do you think that renunciation of love comes only through hatred and resentment?
I recently consulted a man with arrhythmia of the heart up to stops. The reason was in a beloved woman. The first question I asked her was, «Are you afraid to lose him?» - «Yes, I am constantly afraid that he will leave», she replied. «Understand that by doing this, you are killing him. Understand that your will here means nothing. If it is destined for you to divorce from above, you can do nothing, and your fears are useless. If he is destined to be with you, he will not go anywhere. But if your love starts turning into expectation and dependence and generates fears and despondency, then believe me, this is the worst option for keeping a loved one».
There are many forms of renunciation of love.
Love is always associated with cleansing pain. And if we don't want to accept the pain and try to run away from the loved one, provoking him and ourselves to part, devaluing, discrediting our feeling, trying to control it, then to save our soul, we must lose everything for which we renounce love for God. Accept the Divine will, submit to love, preserve love at the moment of loss of everything human, live with this feeling, continuously striving for it - these are the main rules for health and survival.