Experience of Survival. Book 6 (Russian version)
Thank you for your research. It has been very helpful to me and many of my close ones. I've been familiar with your books for 4 years. I remember opening the book «Parenting. Part 1» for the first time. I couldn't understand anything from what was written. It was only after a week that the information started to sink in, and then it all began.
My dad was deeply involved in alcohol and overeating. He was fading away before our eyes. Just before my first seminar last year, he was sent to prison (charged with «Fraud»). It was a heavy blow for the whole family. But I didn't notice any change in myself before or after the seminar.
Before this seminar (the second one for me), my dad had another incident, he was transferred to another prison, my brother fell ill with bronchitis, and my mom started having a complete breakdown at work. I was also feeling a bit off, mostly emotionally. There were sudden mood swings.
My dad reads your books in prison. His psoriasis has disappeared, and his knees have healed. He's started to understand. My mom is also changing for the better.
Thank you very much once again! Keep up the good work!
As is known, the devil manifests in extremes, while God is found in the golden mean. Emotional extremes are a sign of idolatry, pagan thinking. Such a person doesn't accept equality; they either flatter and worship or elevate themselves above others and humiliate them. Such a person rejoices excessively in success and suffers greatly in loss.
Love is the union of opposites, the golden mean. A monotheist intuitively follows a certain pattern: found something – don't rejoice too much, lost something – don't cry. They won't be enslaved by pleasure, nor will they scream in pain or weep in loss. We often think that joy makes us happy. In reality, it's a misconception. A person who doesn't know how to lose will be destroyed by great fortune, acquisition, or joy. The trial of joy and prosperity is more difficult to pass correctly than the trial of illness, adversity, or loss.
Everyone knows that one of the misfortunes of the Russian people is alcoholism. Philosophers, psychologists, and doctors explain addiction to alcohol by anything but internal factors, mainly referring to external, historical factors. The true reason for what happens to a person is always within them. The internal state attracts external events. In Russia, the pagan perception of the world led to envy, theft, cruelty, serfdom, and the oppression of the people against the backdrop of the infallibility and lack of control of spiritual and secular authorities. Alcohol allowed one to suppress the excitement from overwhelming joy and ease the pain of loss. Therefore, Russian people drank in sorrow and in joy.
For someone who hasn't learned to love, great sorrow and great joy are a serious danger. In the modern world, not only alcohol but also overeating, sexual obsession, drugs, gambling, and computer games are attempts to balance emotional extremes that are destructive for a person.
Misfortune, illness, and death also help restrain the tendency towards emotional extremes. Therefore, in the current civilization losing its monotheistic values, the subconscious attraction to misfortunes, illnesses, and death will only intensify. This is a quite natural tendency.
When we return to love, we cease to be slaves to our instincts and desires. We don't worship pleasures, and we don't go crazy over losses. Opposites develop, complementing each other, and then mental and physical healing occurs.
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I am writing this note to you with a sincere selfish purpose: to receive a good scolding or a slap from you and start changing again.
I have been reading your books since 2005. I never really knew what prayer was because I grew up in an atheist family. Nevertheless, over the years that I have been familiar with your works, my chronic pyelonephritis (which I had since the age of two), thrombophlebitis, osteochondrosis, and vision problems completely disappeared. My vision is now 100%, and I can even see well in the dark. My low blood pressure, as well as my vestibular apparatus disorder, also disappeared on their own. Now I can work calmly in any noisy environment, whereas before, I needed absolute silence to concentrate.
I began to gradually change my character. I had a strong pride and lust along my maternal line, which is why I didn't like to socialize with people before. Now I want to make friends, and men don't hate me as much as they used to.
Only now the changes are happening more slowly. I know the reason is my daughter; she refuses to read your books in any way. Recently, I found out that she has been secretly smoking for three years. In general, she is only interested in her own desires.
Perhaps because of this, my hair started falling out in clumps two weeks before the seminar. My character is still terrible, although it is gradually changing. How much I wish for it to change completely!
You have become like a dear father to me now. I love you and wish for peace and harmony in your soul.
Internal dependence on instincts gives rise to extremes in our feelings. We either worship our loved ones and deify them, or we despise and get offended by them if they hurt us. We project our relationship with God onto people. If we believe that God only gives us good and positive emotions, then we expect the same from our loved ones. That's why we hate them when we experience pain instead of pleasure. The higher our feelings, the more pleasure we derive, and the more painful it is for us to lose it.
All of this is deeply embedded in the soul and passed on to descendants. A mother may have hatred or contempt for a man who hurt her, and her daughter will turn these emotions into a self-destructive program, making any stress or pain unbearable for her. As a result, there will be an increasing tendency towards sex, alcohol, or drugs.
During the seminar, the soul is purified, and first and foremost, the purification of descendants takes place. The self-destructive program that passes from a daughter to you can cause hair loss, headaches, vision problems, and even tooth loss. Problems with the genitourinary system can appear out of nowhere, and misfortunes and failures can arise unexpectedly.
Through repentance, you need to remove all moments of self-pity, dissatisfaction with yourself, and judgment of the men through whom the purification was granted. Thank God for the purification of your soul. Learn to see the Divine will and love in everything, understanding that both pain and joy work for love, for union with the Creator. You need to feel that you are love, that we are all children of God and are united with Him on the subtle plane. After that, it will be easier to normalize not only yourself but also your children.
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Huge gratitude for the books! I have been reading them for a long time. But the last three books came to me in May, and everything turned upside down in me. I found God within myself! It was the discovery of my entire life. In that moment, you realize how deeply we are entangled in this life with our problems, desires, and how we live almost like zombies. We are truly united, and in this life, there are no culprits. I was so happy that I wanted to convey this state to everyone, to all.
At that moment, my husband and I were in a quarrel. And when he came home, he asked, «What has changed»? He was smiling, and he no longer wanted to argue.
There is still a lot of work to be done on myself. I would like to ask about this: when I pray to our Lord to help me remember all my offenses against love, my head becomes fuzzy, and I feel amnesia. I understand that I can't make progress in self-improvement. I'm stuck, even though I inherited a lot of work from my mother.
And why does my younger son always have a big smile on his face when he is scolded, especially at college? Problems start with his professors. Although he always rejoices and is very kind. But the professors sometimes think he's «not himself».
My elder son is an atheist. But lately, he initiates conversations with me about God and even goes to church.
My husband has started reading your books and is trying to change his worldview. But he can't work on himself. He says we have a family to feed, and I should work on myself.
I stopped taking communion, I don't believe in the priests. I can't confess. On my last confession, after my statement that «I found God within myself», the priest's face showed shock. Now I don't take communion.
Thank you for showing us the way and scolding us; it helps more than sweet rewards. Wishing you success, and please keep writing books, they are much needed by all of us.
A renowned theologian and professor at the Moscow Spiritual Academy once said that the ritual should not be the primary focus. Neither baptism, nor confession, nor communion, by themselves, grant a person grace. Above all, a person must personally feel the need for God and for love. «Judas partook from the very hands of Jesus Christ, and at that moment, Satan entered into him», said the theologian. Any ritual is only a means to find love.
I completely agree with this point of view. If prayer, communion, and confession do not help us feel love and light in our souls, it likely means that we are praying not for love but for health, well-being, or the fulfillment of our desires.
Followers of Christ often forget the essence of what He taught. «The kingdom of God is within you», which means you can approach God without intermediaries. This is what Christ tried to teach people, and for this, religious authorities hated him.
However, alongside the decline, we can now see a striving for salvation, for finding the truth, for understanding what Jesus Christ preached.
And dwelling on our sins and concentrating on them is not necessary. I believe it's also not worth harboring hatred towards sin, as many priests teach. Sin is the loss of love in the soul, and it's precisely the loss of love that leads to transgressions and crimes.
We need to learn to love. We should thank the Creator for everything, see His will in everything, and then there is no need to dwell on the past. When we change in the present, our past and, simultaneously, our future change. So, your amnesia helps you find the right path. It is a gift from above, it is assistance, and you perceived it as a problem that hinders you.
We simply live in accordance with stereotypes, within familiar patterns. Inside, we know that we are made of love, but externally, we convince ourselves otherwise. From the outside, they try to instill fear and dependence in us, but where there is love, there is no fear. Christ taught love and fearlessness. And when priests speak of the fear of God, it often pushes people towards atheism.
When love in the soul becomes constant, then naive, superficial religious misconceptions gradually give way to more harmonious understandings - they have been known for two thousand years, but we are beginning to understand them only now.